Off beat
 
Off beat but we even keeled
Came back to see if you’re living still
Lost touch over a mishap,
I was mistaken
I was impatient
Rushed by judgement
Thought we had something substantial,
But it wasn’t
It was covered by curtains
Pulled back so now it’s revealed
It is what it is
Watching my back more now,
All the stabbing made me nervous
Fears that never existed started to surface
Finding peace within my purpose
How we was intentional,
I loved you on purpose
Repeated it on several occasions,
Guess you never heard it
The distance is sharp on both ends
These double edges revealed behind the curtain
Thinly veiled promises never fulfilled
They wanted me to change
God made it so I never will
Or maybe I did and unaware
Feel like I’ve a lost a lot,
Maybe the best of me is still there
Held to a different standard
The expectations I never expected
Setting the bar low with nowhere to go
My ascension steady and consistent
Dipped for a few years,
Still managed to climb
Stopped short of losing my mind
Or maybe I did and unaware
Feel like I’ve lost a lot,
Maybe the best of me is still there
Will never forget that feeling
Living every day expecting to die
Experiences elevated due to paranoia
Crying on my own shoulder
Didn’t recognize myself
Couldn’t reconcile the trauma I felt
Asked for help,
Nobody showed up
Me and my ego sitting alone,
Discussing what the years showed us
The lies they sold us
Off beat but we even keeled
Came back to see if you’re living still